How..

do you explain multiple versions of the Bible?

DADT?

Army chief: 'Serious concerns' over 'don't ask, don't tell' repeal - CNN.com*

Evolved

New job, new home, new life, new interests...just a new me.So it's been awhile since I've sat down at my computer to talk about what's been going on in the world around me. During the hiatus from my version of blogging, I've grown up a lot (some of it was BUNCH of whining I know, as evidenced by the archives). Life is what you make of it, and I'm trying not waste anymore of it.

Lately, I've found myself enamored with the current events and social issues; they now seem more pertinent to me. They've had this impact on my journey in this space we call life that I wouldn't trade. I mean I guess I've always had the desire to debate and seek more of the truth, but as I've gotten older its gotten more passionate, more intensified. There are days where I wish I'd have gone into politics or became a professor at a university. I guess it's not too late. I'm only just now turning 30 this year.

At any rate, this is my re-introduction to the blogosphere. I'm here to write about what's going on in the world from my perspective and learn from others as I go along. This blog will range from politics to entertainment, from economics to religion and beyond. It's my goal to get people think critically on the issues and not just accept what's fed to us as the gospel truth. This will be a forum for free-thinking and collaboration. With the help of contributors and readers maybe we'll be able to break the cycle of ignorance one person at a time.

Train Wreck

I've got to get out of this train wreck I call my life. whatever I do, it just seems to spin faster and faster out of control. It's like a recurring nightmare. It never ceases. And the worse part is that it's my life. It's not a dream, it's not a fantasy...it's my reality.

I need peace, I need solace, I need happiness.

I NEED to let go. I also need help letting go. It's not as simple as people try to make it seem. When you lose yourself and what is key to your existence you literally want to jump off a bridge and start over again. But then there's the question of the existence of reincarnation/the afterlife. So that's why you hang on. That's why you hope the next day, the next hour, the next minute will get better. And then it doesn't.

I really don't want to be given much. Just a chance.

Was I right?

Things have changed so much since I've last written anything. I feel like for the most part I've come to some very important realizations. Some for the better and some for the worse. Through it all, though, I've felt though like I've grown. I had to. I moved from what's familiar to me (my friends and home of three years; NJ) to uncharted waters...Florida and a new job. Although Florida and the new job are mutually great for me, among other things, they've had a definite effect on my personal life...my love life.

For so long I wanted a perfect life. A career that allowed me to go places and do things only some people dream of. Along with that I wanted a love that transcended all. Because let's face it...without love it's all pointless to have. You need love. The love I wanted/want would take all my worries away and make me feel whole. I almost had it twice in my life and apparently it still wasn't enough to make it all complete. There's always something still something missing. I could have just a little love and be miserable and have a lot of it and the same is true. It's not that being "in love" doesn't matter to me, it's just that it's foreign to me. It's true form eludes me. It's a concept, yet a reality...a reality that I know the concept of but can't seem to make materialize. It is one that has to be reciprocated. It is one that has to be mutually felt. It is one that has to matter above all else. Maybe I'm just not ready for it? Or is it that I haven't found what I seek?

The only conclusion I can come to is that I'm an enigma. Hard to figure out, but thought to be simple...in my own mind at least. Or am I really just broken? Am I capable of being completely Happy? I dunno. Maybe I just haven't met my "soul" mate. At any rate I think for the moment though I just need to concentrate on myself, as selfish as that may sound and figure out what I really want before involving anyone else in the tangled web of Fred.

Mediocre Castoffs

So I'm sure this has been discussed before, although maybe not in an offical posting or conversation, but let me ask it anyway. I've been noticing lately that every interacial relationship that I see has an attractivity imbalance. I seem to always see hot black guys with not so hot white guys. Why is this? Why do the more attractive black men get stuck, if you will, with the "mediocre castoffs"?All the many reasons I've been given are unacceptable and superficial.Anyone care to shed some light or share your opinion?

So Yeah

So yeah....I'm bored. With what...you can figure out for yourself. But yeah...i'm bored. Definitely in need of something to re-invigorate me, make me smile, make me happy, make me...un-bored.

I need a purpose. No more suppose this or suppose that. I need action, direction, passion, fire and desire. Something that makes me want to get up in the morning.

So yeah...I'm bored and need a purpose. I want what I want, and I want what I deserve. What that is, well that remains to be seen. Hopefully it will present itself soon. Soon I hope rather than later.

So yeah...I'm bored, need a purpose and am hopeful...for now